so I realized I haven't blogged in a very long time...
so here goes.
I will try and update on all aspects.
So my family life is okay I guess. I don't really go home since I live here in Bowling Green now. Well I do but not often. I used to go home a lot to see my boyfriend but that's all done and over with.
So I live in Bowling Green now in a nice lil townhouse. I really like it here. I live with three of my friends and its very nice. We have our problems but it happens, you know? Also we have friends that we chose to live nearby and that's good, also we've gotten closer with other people we knew before too. Also we have all met some new people who all live around here. YAY!
um so friends are cool. I mean, like I said, I have met lots of people this year. I don't keep in contact much with people from my hometown much and that makes me sad. I think its just that we all have our own lives and I mean, Im in school and some of them are too or they're in high school. I mean, with all that you cant expect to talk much, ya know?
I been going to parties which is nice because I always meet new people. Thats actually how I have met so many people. I like it. Plus its nice to just chill and have fun, ya know?
Now Relationships? Yeah I dont really have any. I wont go into detail about that.
Lately, I kinda get this feeling like I am not really going anywhere. I mean I got an idea of what I wanna do when I "grow up" but at this moment, I am not doig anything towards that. None of my classes have anything to do with what I wanna do. I guess I have just been in this mood where I cant seem to do much of anything right. Like everything I do is totally and completely wrong. I feel like everyday should just end with me saying "whoops. my bad."
The End
by Kelly
Monday, November 3
Friday, February 1
my life
lately my life is colorless and bland. I go to class, that part is boring and mostly feels useless. I feel like I am only learning stuff in two of the five classes that seem to clutter my schedule. In my free time I hang out with my friends or do homework. I sit in my room at my computer typing away all the time because I feel it gives me something to do. I hate the weekends, maybe nights in general. My window faces the road and also a big sidewalk. I always constantly hear cars passing by, windows open or closed. Every night I hear people shouting at each other on their way to or from the bars. I hear girls in their heels clunking down the sidewalk on their way to the bars and to possibly get assaulted. Can you really blame the man when the girls taunt with such pieces of clothing that barely cover them? (just to point, im not saying assault is okay) Less and less I feel as if I do not understand why girls dress this way and go out every weekend. Sometimes I feel like dancing and it is always nice to feel sexy about yourself. However, I only wear what I wear for myself. When I go out, I wear what makes me feel comfortable with myself. I am not about to wear the most uncomfortable shoes ever just to impress some guy. I wont do that for anyone.
it has come to my attention lately that I may be too nice. and I dont mean the type of person who brags about how nice they are like doing charity and stuff. i dont do charity or help old ladies across the street or anything. I just let people walk all over me. Some people are nice most of the time but can get an attitude and be all like "i wanna do this" and so everyone does it because they are scared to death. I cant do that. No matter what I always say "oh I dont care" whether I do or not. I cant tell people what to do or be bitchy toward them. I dont care about what people think really but I usually care whether they like me or not. I dont een know if that makes sense.
At my dorm building, each hall has a different smell. Some girls halls smell of cologne. From that you can tell that this hall has quite a few of those girls who ALWAYS get their guy or who maybe just put out. Obviously from a smelly hallway you can just tell that people stink and maybe shower not that often, although they may have their own personal reasons for that. I dont know exactly what my hallway smells like really. I think I dont notice it because I actually live here. I think our hallway is mostly the music hallway.
I hate the way people play their music loudly and assume everyone else is okay with it. They are surprised when people are upset by it. I dont care if you or anyone like my music but I am not about to blast my speakers because I respect that other people, people living next to me, might want some quiet or might be napping or doing homework or whatever.
I think its really weird to hear peoples conversations as they walk by my window. They arent talking to me, and I know that, but I cant help but hear stuff. Its funny how people think that those of us in the building cant hear them at all. They'll say weird things or yell a lot at their friends who are 2 feet from them at 3 or 4am. It gets really annoying.
i apologize for this long boring rant about life and whatnot. I hope it was at least an interesting read.
it has come to my attention lately that I may be too nice. and I dont mean the type of person who brags about how nice they are like doing charity and stuff. i dont do charity or help old ladies across the street or anything. I just let people walk all over me. Some people are nice most of the time but can get an attitude and be all like "i wanna do this" and so everyone does it because they are scared to death. I cant do that. No matter what I always say "oh I dont care" whether I do or not. I cant tell people what to do or be bitchy toward them. I dont care about what people think really but I usually care whether they like me or not. I dont een know if that makes sense.
At my dorm building, each hall has a different smell. Some girls halls smell of cologne. From that you can tell that this hall has quite a few of those girls who ALWAYS get their guy or who maybe just put out. Obviously from a smelly hallway you can just tell that people stink and maybe shower not that often, although they may have their own personal reasons for that. I dont know exactly what my hallway smells like really. I think I dont notice it because I actually live here. I think our hallway is mostly the music hallway.
I hate the way people play their music loudly and assume everyone else is okay with it. They are surprised when people are upset by it. I dont care if you or anyone like my music but I am not about to blast my speakers because I respect that other people, people living next to me, might want some quiet or might be napping or doing homework or whatever.
I think its really weird to hear peoples conversations as they walk by my window. They arent talking to me, and I know that, but I cant help but hear stuff. Its funny how people think that those of us in the building cant hear them at all. They'll say weird things or yell a lot at their friends who are 2 feet from them at 3 or 4am. It gets really annoying.
i apologize for this long boring rant about life and whatnot. I hope it was at least an interesting read.
Tuesday, November 20
Thanksgiving:: A Righteous Holiday or Sacrificial Commemoration
We have known this holiday known has Thanksgiving since we were small. The holidays of pilgrims and Indians and turkey and pumpkin pie. This celebration is supposed to commemorate the gathering of the people into a celebration. But is this truly a holiday or the commemoration of a tragic event.
Have you ever thought of all that happened when we came to this land? We fought for land and killed many people-- Indians. We stole from people and claimed it as our own and we make a grrrreat celebration out of it. This holiday is made to be all about the pilgrims and how everything was peaceful with the Indians back in the day but it wasn't. Not just about Thanksgiving, Indians were killed in many different battles and for no specific reason really as to steal their land and call it our own. I don't know about you but it doesn't seem to make much sense to me.
In this sense, is Thanksgiving also not considered to be a ritual sacrifice within itself? We get a turkey, although most do not kill it themselves, and eat it in the commemoration of a past event. I thoroughly enjoy turkey as much as the next person don't get me wrong, but certain holidays with specific animal products set to them seem to be like a set ritual. I guess it would seem different if Thanksgiving wasn't set to the traditional turkey or Christmas to the ham. It's like the Gods or God are saying "On this day of every year we would enjoy a turkey/ham/whatever" and we go along with it to please them. Much like a ritual sacrifice.
P.S. I will be enjoying the traditional turkey but not actually consider myself celebrating Thanksgiving. In my opinion it is all in the mindset and turkey is delicious. Sorry.
Have you ever thought of all that happened when we came to this land? We fought for land and killed many people-- Indians. We stole from people and claimed it as our own and we make a grrrreat celebration out of it. This holiday is made to be all about the pilgrims and how everything was peaceful with the Indians back in the day but it wasn't. Not just about Thanksgiving, Indians were killed in many different battles and for no specific reason really as to steal their land and call it our own. I don't know about you but it doesn't seem to make much sense to me.
In this sense, is Thanksgiving also not considered to be a ritual sacrifice within itself? We get a turkey, although most do not kill it themselves, and eat it in the commemoration of a past event. I thoroughly enjoy turkey as much as the next person don't get me wrong, but certain holidays with specific animal products set to them seem to be like a set ritual. I guess it would seem different if Thanksgiving wasn't set to the traditional turkey or Christmas to the ham. It's like the Gods or God are saying "On this day of every year we would enjoy a turkey/ham/whatever" and we go along with it to please them. Much like a ritual sacrifice.
P.S. I will be enjoying the traditional turkey but not actually consider myself celebrating Thanksgiving. In my opinion it is all in the mindset and turkey is delicious. Sorry.
Tuesday, October 30
one rule for living in a college dorm::
So last night this girl comes into my room, shes like my neighbor er something, right?
She continuously goes off on how we're being SOOOOO loud and we're ALWAYS yelling down the hallway and saying how she has early classes. The best part is when she said "its nice that you guys have fun and have TIME to have fun but I dont and I need to sleep so keep it down." She threatened to get the RA involved (yeh thats a Resident Advisor if you dont know). She made it sound like she was always coming into my room and telling us to shut our noise holes er something.
I have seen her like once or twice before when I was in Caitlins room and there were other people there with us. Those two times were also quite distant from each other.
ANYways.
Point of this boring story?
Yeah what kind of person going to college has the nerve to complain about noise?! I understand the whole being reasonable thing. Which we are. I mean I guess my roommate was yelling down the hallway at me because she thought I was right outside. But we will laugh, not even that loud, and she'll be like "you guys are being really loud".
My guess:
She is an only child back home and her parents raised her to be all "perfect" and get good grades or be severely punished.
Thats why you live OFF campus if you're just so tightly wound.
She continuously goes off on how we're being SOOOOO loud and we're ALWAYS yelling down the hallway and saying how she has early classes. The best part is when she said "its nice that you guys have fun and have TIME to have fun but I dont and I need to sleep so keep it down." She threatened to get the RA involved (yeh thats a Resident Advisor if you dont know). She made it sound like she was always coming into my room and telling us to shut our noise holes er something.
I have seen her like once or twice before when I was in Caitlins room and there were other people there with us. Those two times were also quite distant from each other.
ANYways.
Point of this boring story?
Yeah what kind of person going to college has the nerve to complain about noise?! I understand the whole being reasonable thing. Which we are. I mean I guess my roommate was yelling down the hallway at me because she thought I was right outside. But we will laugh, not even that loud, and she'll be like "you guys are being really loud".
My guess:
She is an only child back home and her parents raised her to be all "perfect" and get good grades or be severely punished.
Thats why you live OFF campus if you're just so tightly wound.
Monday, October 29
This Is Halloween
Halloween is, to me, a great time of year.
I mean its like "come as you aren't night". You get to dress up, no matter how old you are, and everyone gets tricks and treats of all sorts. Everywhere its like a ghoulish creepy setting in a safe lil' neighborhood. No monsters or goblins be found here, they must hate how marketable the whole evening-- no season-- has become.
It's hard for me to imagine that some families deny this holiday as a rule. Not because of some personal distaste for the holiday itself because I can except that some don't enjoy it, but because of religiousness. They see it as a satanic holiday. Satanism, if you are too stupid to know, is the worshiping of the devil. What satan-worshiping do we do on this holiday? Nobody really knows I think.
Do Satans followers in hell really dress up in costumes and go door to door and ask for candy?
This scenario seems a little unlikely but isn't it adorable to imagine?
Also it must be taken into account that alot of so called "satan worshipers" dont really do anything. They are just Atheists who enjoy the darker side of life. They don't actually go "Oh my god the devil is like my best friend" and such. The dont sacrifice animals to anyone. I heard somewhere someone said something like "satanism was like partially created just to piss off Christians".
So yeah.
It's not evil for your child to dress up in a harmless costume and ask for candy. It's a holiday. And Halloween isn't one of those holidays reserved for certain religions. It's free of charge. Well for the most part.
I mean its like "come as you aren't night". You get to dress up, no matter how old you are, and everyone gets tricks and treats of all sorts. Everywhere its like a ghoulish creepy setting in a safe lil' neighborhood. No monsters or goblins be found here, they must hate how marketable the whole evening-- no season-- has become.
It's hard for me to imagine that some families deny this holiday as a rule. Not because of some personal distaste for the holiday itself because I can except that some don't enjoy it, but because of religiousness. They see it as a satanic holiday. Satanism, if you are too stupid to know, is the worshiping of the devil. What satan-worshiping do we do on this holiday? Nobody really knows I think.
Do Satans followers in hell really dress up in costumes and go door to door and ask for candy?
This scenario seems a little unlikely but isn't it adorable to imagine?
Also it must be taken into account that alot of so called "satan worshipers" dont really do anything. They are just Atheists who enjoy the darker side of life. They don't actually go "Oh my god the devil is like my best friend" and such. The dont sacrifice animals to anyone. I heard somewhere someone said something like "satanism was like partially created just to piss off Christians".
So yeah.
It's not evil for your child to dress up in a harmless costume and ask for candy. It's a holiday. And Halloween isn't one of those holidays reserved for certain religions. It's free of charge. Well for the most part.
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